I am surprised to see
 that the ocean is still going on.
 Now I am going back
 and I have ripped my hand
 from your hand as I said I would
 and I have made it this far
 as I said I would
 and I am on the top deck now
 holding my wallet, my cigarettes
 and my car keys
 at 2 o’clock on a Tuesday
 in August of 1960.
 Dearest,
 although everything has happened,
 nothing has happened.
 The sea is very old.
 The sea is the face of Mary,
 without miracles or rage
 or unusual hope,
 grown rough and wrinkled
 with incurable age.
 Still,
 I have eyes.
 These are my eyes:
 the orange letters that spell
 ORIENT on the life preserver
 that hangs by my knees;
 the cement lifeboat that wears
 its dirty canvas coat;
 the faded sign that sits on its shelf
 saying KEEP OFF.
 Oh, all right, I say,
 I’ll save myself.
 Over my right shoulder
 I see four nuns
 who sit like a bridge club,
 their faces poked out
 from under their habits,
 as good as good babies who
 have sunk into their carriages.
 Without discrimination
 the wind pulls the skirts
 of their arms.
 Almost undressed,
 I see what remains:
 that holy wrist,
 that ankle,
 that chain.
 Oh god,
 although I am very sad,
 could you please
 let these four nuns
 loosen from their leather boots
 and their wooden chairs
 to rise out
 over this greasy deck,
 out over this iron rail,
 nodding their pink heads to one side,
 flying four abreast
 in the old-fashioned side stroke;
 each mouth open and round,
 breathing together
 as fish do,
 singing without sound.
 Dearest,
 see how my dark girls sally forth,
 over the passing lighthouse of Plum Gut,
 its shell as rusty
 as a camp dish,
 as fragile as a pagoda
 on a stone;
 out over the little lighthouse
 that warns me of drowning winds
 that rub over its blind bottom
 and its blue cover;
 winds that will take the toes
 and the ears of the rider
 or the lover.
 There go my dark girls,
 their dresses puff
 in the leeward air.
 Oh, they are lighter than flying dogs
 or the breath of dolphins;
 each mouth opens gratefully,
 wider than a milk cup.
 My dark girls sing for this.
 They are going up.
 See them rise
 on black wings, drinking
 the sky, without smiles
 or hands
 or shoes.
 They call back to us
 from the gauzy edge of paradise,
 good news, good news.

















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