August, goldenrod blowing. We walk
 into the graveyard, to find
 my grandfather’s grave. Ten years ago
 I came here last, bringing
 marigolds from the round garden
 outside the kitchen.
 I didn’t know you then.
  We walk
 among carved names that go with photographs
 on top of the piano at the farm:
 Keneston, Wells, Fowler, Batchelder, Buck.
 We pause at the new grave
 of Grace Fenton, my grandfather’s
 sister. Last summer
 we called on her at the nursing home,
 eighty-seven, and nodding
 in a blue housedress. We cannot find
 my grandfather’s grave.
  Back at the house
 where no one lives, we potter
 and explore the back chamber
 where everything comes to rest: spinning wheels,
 pretty boxes, quilts,
 bottles, books, albums of postcards.
 Then with a flashlight we descend
 firm steps to the root cellar—black,
 cobwebby, huge,
 with dirt floors and fieldstone walls,
 and above the walls, holding the hewn
 sills of the house, enormous
 granite foundation stones.
 Past the empty bins
 for squash, apples, carrots, and potatoes,
 we discover the shelves for canning, a few
 pale pints
 of tomato left, and—what
 is this?—syrup, maple syrup
 in a quart jar, syrup
 my grandfather made twenty-five
 years ago
 for the last time.
 I remember
 coming to the farm in March
 in sugaring time, as a small boy.
 He carried the pails of sap, sixteen-quart
 buckets, dangling from each end
 of a wooden yoke
 that lay across his shoulders, and emptied them
 into a vat in the saphouse
 where fire burned day and night
 for a week.
  Now the saphouse
 tilts, nearly to the ground,
 like someone exhausted
 to the point of death, and next winter
 when snow piles three feet thick
 on the roofs of the cold farm,
 the saphouse will shudder and slide
 with the snow to the ground.
 Today
 we take my grandfather’s last
 quart of syrup
 upstairs, holding it gingerly,
 and we wash off twenty-five years
 of dirt, and we pull
 and pry the lid up, cutting the stiff,
 dried rubber gasket, and dip our fingers
 in, you and I both, and taste
 the sweetness, you for the first time,
 the sweetness preserved, of a dead man
 in the kitchen he left
 when his body slid
 like anyone’s into the ground.



















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